
1 year ago I returned to work after a 12 week maternity leave. Wow! How time flies. Getting into the grove with a newborn was tough. It will never be easy, but things have gotten so much better. The main difference is that Scott is not traveling anymore (hallelujah!!!!). I still struggle with the decision to leave Evy at daycare for 45 hours each week so that I can come to work. This is an internal struggle that I don't ever see me being 100% comfortable with. Is any mother ever 100% content with the work/life balance? Whether you stay at home, work part time, or work full time I think it's difficult. On one hand, Evy has thrived in daycare. She loves the social aspect of it. I think her early walking, talking and social skills are all a result of the daycare environment. On the other hand, I hate that she is sick all of the time. I hate that I miss 45 hours of her life each week. I hate that her early years are flying by as I go to work. This part has not gotten any better. But, I'm learning to manage it. I'm learning to turn work off when I leave my office. I'm learning to plan our social schedule so that we aren't away from Evy very often on the weekends. I'm learning that we can never get these years back so we have to do our best to soak them up while we can. Not bad progress for a year.